championsaremade:

be afraid! it’s okay! feel the fear! do hard shit anyway! take the chance anyway! taking action isn’t about the absence of fear, it’s about being brave enough to do hard shit anyway even when you’re a little afraid! do hard shit! you can do it!

ahsenat:

There’s gonna be THAT person that comes along when you aren’t expecting anything and they treat you right and everything’s healthy and they’re gonna make you feel all kinds of shit you didn’t know you could feel bitch do not let that go I’m telling you

Happy Holidays!

Hi friends!

Just wanted to pop on and say hi and wish you all a wonderful holiday season. I know it can be a difficult time of year (for me included) so my heart goes out to you <3

It has been soooo nice to have a break from grad school (after a good first term!) and I’m soaking in all of the free time where I have no reading or HW to do. I have been trying to work a little more (but not too much!) and it’s been good. Luckily I didn’t have to work Christmas Eve or Christmas Day, but I will be working New Years Day eve shift which isn’t terrible. It was nice to have a little break and now I’m back tomorrow for 3 days in a row.

I had such a wonderful Christmas Eve and day and feel so blessed. I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people in my lives, and I feel so blessed for recovery. It’s amazing how much less stressed and worried I am about food (there’s still a little bit but it’s nowhere near where it used to be!). I was feeling a little uncomfortable yesterday but I tried to remind myself that 1. I don’t have to eat every thing on the table or my plate 2. To really taste the deliciousness in my mouth 3. If I want something, to have it and 4. That I’m not a bad person for feeling full. I ate the things that I wanted and that was that. I hope you all did too <3

It was a little weird not being “home” on Christmas morning, but T was SO adorable and thoughtful. He was so proud of himself haha! We got home on Christmas Eve at 2:30AM (!) and apparently he had tons of presents hidden in his bathroom that were to the both of us from “Santa” which he put out when I went to bed. He got stockings and everything and it was so adorable. I was beaming with happiness and warmth.. not because I got more stuff, but because of all of the thought he put into it. I know Christmas isn’t about the presents either, but I am so grateful for the things I got. Some highlights were diamond earrings from T, 2 massage gift cards, a Taylor Swift long-sleeve from her tour, Jojo’s chocolate bars, Nike’s and the necessities like elastics, bobby pins, chapstick, lotion, etc. Oh and sooo much dark chocolate :p But the best Christmas present of all may have been getting my purse back!! Now I can get back to reading my books :)

Now I’m just trying to relax before I’m back to the grind tomorrow! Love to you all!